Wednesday, September 28, 2011

11

ok so 11 means 2 things in this post.
The first is James is 11 months!!! Holy moly seriously where did my baby go! He is so much fun I love every minute!

And the second 11 is 11 pounds! For me 10 lbs is "easy" to lose, but I lose 10 gain 5 lose 2 gain 5... so I lost 10 lbs and it stayed the scale didn't go up or down for 3 days in a row! I even had David weigh himself because I wanted to make sure it wasn't broken. Then it happened it dropped 1 more pound! It felt so good to see that number on the scale. It has been the combination of working out and not eating...ok I am eating but I keep my calorie intake to 800-1200 calories a day (with guidance from my doctor and a personal trainer). The thing that has really help though is my new medication. It suppresses my appetite so I don't feel hungry all the time and I am more focused through the day that I have stopped snaking and having that wanting to eat feeling is gone.
Really I am a lot happier in life now! ( I was very happy before but it really is amazing!)

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Another ADD post

Seriously it really has been the best thing I could do to get medication for my Adult ADD.
Yesterday I wasn't able to take my Adderall because I wanted to take some Dayquil because I thought I was getting a little bit of a cold. Oh boy yesterday I just didn't want to do anything! Well I did I wanted to take a shower and work on a sewing project and take James down to the park...but I didn't get any of that done! I was also so incredibly hungry! My brain was just all over the place that I really had a hard time focusing on anything!
It's so hard to try and describe this. How can you understand what I mean when you have never experienced this? But I took my first pill today and WOW! I have worked out showered and eaten and it's not even noon yet! Really this is the best thing I have ever done! I just feel so good! I can't even explain how great I feel!

Sunday, September 18, 2011

What to write...

I can't tell you how many times with in the last 48 hours that I have come here and started to write a new blog entry then stopped. I just can't think of anything really interesting to say... I mean there is plenty going on but I just can't put things into words right now...
So I thought I would write about how I have nothing to say...

Monday, September 12, 2011

bad news good news

Yesterday at church I gave myself my own little challenge. I would sit and actively try to pay attention to the speakers and teachers. Well this is still something I have to work on. I couldn't help but think that I could be doing something more productive. Although I know learning the gospel is productive.
It's just something I still have to work on...

But on the good news I have lost 8lbs since last Tuesday! One of the nice side affects of Addreall is appetite suppressant. And I'm more thirsty. So this means that I'm eating less and drinking more. Which is a good thing! I still try to make sure that I'm at least getting enough good protein because I know I need it especially since I'm working out still. But I get up take my first pill then eat breakfast and then get busy doing other things that I forget to eat before dinner.
I hope the number on the scale keeps going down!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Motivated

Ok so BIG difference for me ever since I have been taken the Addreall I really have become so much more productive! It's kinda exciting!
A "normal" day before was wake up take care of James, maybe clean, maybe start dinner before David got home.
Now I get up and get going! i actually cleaned the kitchen without stopping! This may seem like a simple task to most but for me this was a big deal! And I did it so much faster then before. I was able to do and complete some crafts that I'm getting ready for our RS Super Saturday.
I actually got out of the pj's and got ready for the day.

I would like to think that James is even benefiting from his more efficient mom. I never negleted him before or anything in fact my whole day revolved around him. I love him so much and I love to play and read to him. But now that I can get more done, going to the park isn't a big as a deal as it was before, chasing him around the house is even more fun!

I'm just so happy and excited! All the "chatter" in my head is gone. David even said I seem happier.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Adult ADD

Yesterday I went to the doctor and asked about Adult ADD (different then childhood) and it turns out that I got it bad.

This is how it all began...
I went to lunch with my good friend Taren and we were talking about everything under the sun. She then mentioned that she had Adult ADD. When she was telling me how she felt all the channels in her head were going off at once I went that is me! When she said she tried to focus in class and ended up thinking about the teachers tie, I started to think about her really cute hair cut and wondered where she got it and how much did it cost I wonder if it would look good on me....oh ya we are talking about something else...yes I find my mind wondering all the time!
So I went home after our lunch and started looking online and doing some of my own research.
I found some screening test to see if you had it and weather or not I should actually go in and ask about it. Here are some of the questions:
I find it difficult to read written material unless it is very interesting or very easy.

I am irritable, and get upset by minor annoyances.

I say things without thinking, and later regret having said them.

My moods have highs and lows.

I usually work on more than one project at a time, and fail to finish many of them.

There is a lot of "static" or "chatter" in my head

Even when sitting quietly, I am usually moving my hands or feet.

My thoughts bounce around as if my mind is a pinball machine.

My brain feels as if it is a television set with all the channels going at once.

I am unable to stop daydreaming.

I am distressed by the disorganized way my brain works.

I answered strongly agree to all of these questions!
Some things that I can apply from my life: at church I can't just sit and do nothing I never understood how someone could just sit and listen! I have to play with the program or my phone and now that I have a baby I used him as an excuse as to why I couldn't just sit. Another example when David and I watch a TV show or movie together I have to be doing something else like playing on the computer or doing something with my hands.
When David came home I started to talk to him about it and he looked at a couple things and looked at me and said "Yep this is you to a T".

So I finally made an appointment with my doctor and went in yesterday.
I was given a verbal survey similar to this one and my doctor and I determined that I do indeed have Adult ADD. I was given a prescription for Adderall (generic: Amphetamine) to try for a month. Now we did talk about the difference between someone having a couple of "bad days" and then me who seems to always have a "bad day".
I have only taken my first 2 pills today but already I can see a difference. I am actually actively trying to turn on all the "channels" in my head but I can't it's easier for me to switch channels. I actually sat here and wrote this entire blog without stopping and going to other sites or doing something else (well I did have to stop to take care of James a few times). I'm really excited about this and I plan on sharing my experience with this for the next month.
I'm going to be open and honest about things that are going on and how I'm feeling. This will also help me when I report back to my doctor.
I also want to be able to answer any questions you has readers may have, but just know that I'm learning as I go.

Finally!

It has been too long since I got on here and blogged!
I blog everyday on James' blog, and I don't post them because I want to add pictures and such and I just found out that most of them disappeared and I don't know how to recover them (sad) but I am keeping a hard copy journal as well so at least I have that recorded for him..

So there has been a lot going on since the last time I posted but I'm not going to go back at this point and blog it all so I will just do a quick catch up.

James is now 10 months old!
David is loving his new job at BYU and they really like him over there.
And I am having a blast learning and playing with James! He is the best thing in the world and I would do anything for him!


Thursday, September 1, 2011

Awesome Givaway

Hey go check out this awesome Giveaway going on! I'm so excited!